Sharing is caring ( I fuckin' guess). The other day I was asked, "What is it like." Well, my good friend, I wish I knew. New, exciting, not exciting, scary...and yet, new.
I guess it could be like that scene in David "Freekin'" Lynch's super awesome Lost Highway. There is a scene where the character is in prison for murder and then dude morphs into a dude not in prison sitting in a So Cal backyard and Antonio Carlos Jobim's "Insensitive" is playing in the background. What the fuck just happened. At one moment dude was in prison for murder and the next, the same person-but in a different body-is chillin' while bossa nova is playing. The character is all WTF just happened. He is a totally different person.
That is what it is like for me. I'm all WTF and I'm a different person (and I guess the difference is that there is no soothing bossa nova playing in the background or in my head-there is no music). It's also like the Twilight Zone. Becarefull what you ask for...you might get it (and I'm referring to change or Nu Kriss).
Everything is different. I'm not watching football, no music, I'm not happy go lucky etc...nothing, nadda...Everyday I feel like this character and I wake up and go "WTF, who is this...what is this." i don't even want my gun back (and y'all know I love my gun. I really do). When I was really totally suffering last winter, all summer, I prayed to the big Guy for change. I wanted my suffering to be alleviated (and for the most part it has), but I didn't want this....
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* Fuck youtube...here's the link. Piece of shit.
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